i was wrong.
it's not another change that i need. indeed, i've been slacking and forgotten so much.

istiqomah is probably the next best solution. next to drugs treatment i mean. do they use drugs to cure such problems? i don't know. but don't doubt it either. modern meds are always associated with drugs. don't even know why they'd choose drugs than other natural resources. maybe meds practitioner should start going green with medicine. go green meds! *tetibe*

having a variety of interest might not be a bad things. perhaps i should manipulate myself into doing 10 things at once. ok maybe 2 at once. just the committing part is still under construction.

maybe, just maybe, learning to become istiqomah is learning about being committed.

i shall practice it now.