i've always joke around with my friends about wanting to get married early. as early as today i mean.
it's all laugh and fun.
also, i like to tease mak about me not wanting to get married.
end up with her lecture of how important getting married is.
still, it's all laugh and fun.

but someday, when Allah says "kun fa ya kun" and getting married is a real thing,
it's all nervous and scared for me.
shocked and sad for mak.

i know.