i'm afraid i cannot do it.

:'(

too cheesy to tweet

of every second passed by without you around,
i miss you.

i've always joke around with my friends about wanting to get married early. as early as today i mean.
it's all laugh and fun.
also, i like to tease mak about me not wanting to get married.
end up with her lecture of how important getting married is.
still, it's all laugh and fun.

but someday, when Allah says "kun fa ya kun" and getting married is a real thing,
it's all nervous and scared for me.
shocked and sad for mak.

i know.

.rindu.

aku rasa tak lama lagi bila aku dengar maharku untukmu ni ...


... aku nangis.

i removed last post.
thought that i said "all answers are confidential"
hihi

bersyukurlah sebab masih dapat ucap selamat hari jadi, selamat hari emak dan selamat hari guru kat mak.

i've been getting stomach ache.
mak simply said it's gastric.
probably because of irregular eating time, spicy food and stress.

irregular eating time? hmm.. not really. just sometimes.
spicy food? i couldn't agree more. ehehehe
stress? ni aku tak tau tak tau tak tau hahahaha bai

anyway, i have weak stomach.

untuk mak yang kuat mengsekolahkan aku dan abang-abang dan kakak aku,
dan paling tough sebab memberanakkan kami
dan paling cekal sebab sanggup bangun tengah malam nak tengok demam aku macam mana,
dan paling cool sebab selalu bagi hadiah berunsur keperempuanan kat aku masa zaman belum cukup perempuan lagi,

selamat hari emak,
semalam, hari ni, esok dan selamanya.
semoga Allah merahmati dan menyayangi emak.
(:

it took me almost a year to get over with it.
that was before.
i wonder if it happens again, how short would i need?




please don't.
just please.

semester ni
jiwa aku mati
dimamah waktu
dan rasa

kesayangan-kesayangan di hadapan
beratus-ratus helai kertas di belakang
kejar-mengejari

kejap aku laju kedepan
kejap aku perlahan
yg depan aku mahu
yang belakang aku perlu

maaf lah
aku tak tahu lagi

semoga semester ni tamat dengan jayanya
menangis pun menangis la
janji aku nak tamatkan on time


T_______T

aku ...

... sepi

dejavu.
perlu aku ulang lagi

suka kamu aku buat begitu?

i don't think we need to overestimate stuff.

assignment should be short, simple and sweet enough for readers to understand.

unless your lecturers are the "wordy" type.

ape resis resis?
korangz tak tau ker penyebaran Islam dulu berjaya sebab ketiadaan resis dalam Islam?

mari la kembali dari negara bangsa kepada negara errr... agama?

bermula dengan membaca.
"bacalah!"
bukan beautifulnara mahupun ohbulan atau rotikaya,
tapi buku yg lebih "berisi"
cari la gaya penulisan yg memikat hati

sebelum tu, mari la kumpul kerajinan menyiapkan tesis.
dan ip.
dan ekon.
dan karangan terulung tentang kualiti.

semoga dijauhkan dari sifat malas bertimba-timba
serta penyakit melengahkan masa

demi masa, sesungguhnya manusia kerugian, kecuali orang-orang yg beriman dan beramal soleh, dan berpesan-pesan dgn kebenaran, dan berpesan-pesan dgn kesabaran

membuat research itu ibadah
dari fadhu kifayah
beribadah tangga kepada keimanan
amboi sukati aku je

dah la
aku sebenarnya tengah motivate diri sendiri nak buat kerja
sesungguhnya aku adalah orang yg dalam kerugian

mari beribadah (buat research)!

wallahu'alam.

i didn't get my bihun sup today.
which is the highlight of my breakfast every week.
because dm set their clock 5 minutes early.
because makcik dm don't want to accept me being late for a minute today.
and i still find that makcik bitter.
i think that makcik didn't get enough sleep last night.
or every night?

i'm still upset i didn't get my bihun sup today.

it is sad and scary to see how much a lost history can cause.
lost? oh well.

of "primitive" era and "modernisation".

well, we "evolved from apes"
what a theory.

i used to take hadiths and Quran translation as it is.
but Allah wants us to use our mind to think,
and when i do,
i started to look at things differently.

if you are fighting in the name of Islam (of course in the name of Allah the Most Gracious and Most Merciful),
you should know that the fundamentals in Islam solves what we are quarreling about today.
so let's turn back to Islam and embrace it with all our heart,
insya Allah, Allah will show us the way.
the only thing we do is ask.

start small, think big :)

assalamualaikum.

oh hai orang malaysia. macam mana? ok tak? saya harap ok lah.

wah terasa matang sungguh apabila mengikuti siri pilihanraya kali ini.

ehem. ok dah.

ada orang baca tak ni? hello hello.

sebenarnya aku tak tau la patut ke post mengenai pandangan peribadi (cewah cewah peribadi cewahhh) tentang pilihanraya pertama yg aku layak mengundi tapi tak cukup umur ni hahaha bai.

eh alamak keje sekolah banyak la. kita sembang lain tahun ye.

i think university should be in jungle.
surrounded by so many many trees.
everytime i feel tired looking at books or notes or (most of the time) laptop, i would just look outside and be thankful for Allah's creation.
that's why i'm loving my (so-called) workspace in the college room.
there aren't many trees outside.
but when i need to think of something for a while, i'd just look away.

anywaywayway,
it's thursday, the day after i laze around in the room alone. problem is, when my roomates are around, we'd talk so much and my to-do list will stay untouched.
but when i'm alone, i'd laze around, sleep or just do nothing, and the same thing happened to my works.
ish.

i don't even know what i need.

but right now i know what i need..


sleep.

or just ... type some more?