recently a friend of mine just ended her long distance relationship, after a few years together. it's pretty sad. they're like the perfect puzzle. but who am i to judge. only Allah knows what's best for us. may Allah grant her strength and show her guidance to His path.

i feel her somehow. it's pretty hard. as time flies, i realized a lot of things i refused to learned before. i pick up some lesson and unintentionally drop the good things behind. no one wants a shattered ending. no one ever want it, especially the moment they enter the relationship. how one wish the sweet moments pause. but as cliche as it sounds, things happened. no one wants it but nonetheless, when one mildly give their best, things would happen.

i've learned my lesson, which is only part of the millions lessons i'd be learning.

on unrelated notes, abang got married last week. Alhamdulillah everything went on smoothly. semoga Allah panjangkan jodoh mereka sampai ke syurga.

abang got married... is really weird. haha. well like i said, things happened. only it's in past tense ;)

i missed you so much i would scream your name in a crowded, noisy place.
truthfully.

when you revert back to Islam,

remember, you were once lost like the other souls you see. give them as much love as you can, show them how the light has given you what you and everyone has been searching for.

remember the things you hated others did, because you shouldn't repeat it.

always remember to remind yourself that you're an imperfect human being, you always are.

and Allah loves you. that's why you feel the way you felt.

#notetoself

i thought that tvxq coming in may means all 5 of them are coming.
but they're down to two now.
iSad.. :(
no?yes?no five?
isk iskk..

at some point i thought that they're gonna be like the legend group who'll never break up.
i was so wrong.
and suju is just spectacular with their addition and subtraction from time to time.
i should sing time after time for them.
no?yes?forever?

just about two weeks ago i downloaded proposal daisakusen, which i initially forgot its name but thanks to dramawiki for jotting down every single title of yamapi's drama.
i even forgotten yamapi's name in the first place.
i remembered his face, and slowly the name yamapi reappeared in my mind.
and soon, with the thanks of google this time, i remembered his real name, again.
and all his series i've watched or should've watched.
once upon a time, i thought i'd get to meet yamapi and be cool with it while my heart thumping wild. and i'd give him effortless present but think about it so much the night before.
now i don't even remember his name.

for the record, i can't name all suju's member like used to.
and i don't have enough patient anymore to wait for a volume of manga to get downloaded completely.

talking about fangirling eh?

all this was 5 b.c.
:)

the fact is, whether, you like it or not, there'll always be a party who'll gain from war. whoever it is, not cool bro. not cool.

i save all my comments on lahad datu issues mainly due to conflicting news spread.

when i was young, a teacher if mine, or probably some influentel adult back then told me that you hold a great responsibility when you become a judge. hypothetically speaking, one of your feet is in heaven, another is in hell. that is just to show how really big the liability of a judge.

now when i think of it again, historians does bear the same responsibility. what they write will shape the mind and spirit of future generation. it's pretty much a subjective and subliminal stuff that we don't realize until we do start to think. "orang yg tidak mengetahui" is being repeated in Al-Quran which most of time associated with stupidity (pardon my vocab).

hence, it's not a wonder that rumours says stealing manuscript is part of war scheme. and that history is written by winners.

may Allah protect us from fitnah. wallahu'alam.